I am not part of a gym, but my apartment complex has a very nice workout area and am going to start using that 3-4 times per week. I agree that working out helps you feel better and I need that desperately.
You are also right about checking the records and I went for over a month without even thinking about it, but then with Friday and Saturdays events, I became weak and looked and then got pissed and looked more. I haven't looked since then and I am going to start over on not looking at things.
We had a very hard MC today. It was very back and forth and lots of crying and sadness. Basically W said that her mind is telling her to stay but her heart/feelings are telling to quit. C said this is a good thing in that her mind is telling her to stay? I don't know, it seems very bad to me overall. After all of that, C said that since we are both willing to try, lets say for the next three months, there are no questions about who's trying or if we are going to try, and get down and dirty. Me pursue her, her pursue me, do the things we are asked to do in counseling, ect. W agreed to this, albeit reluctantly, but she did agree. C said that at the end of three months if there is no progress or backwards, then we might want to look at stopping this, but she believes if we both do this, we will see improvement? I don't know, maybe. I am going to continue to work on me and marriage and I hope that W will do so also. After the session was over, W didn't want to talk to me in the parking lot and has been very short with me when we talked for a minute later in the day.
Not sure what all of this means, but it doesn't change anything for me as far as me trying to better myself. If anyone would like to jump in here with opinions, advice, ect. I would greatly appreciate it!
