Journaling... Ok, so instead of thinking about what to say and worrying and waiting, I decided just to send a message regarding the bills. I did get angry I just stated that this has put me in a hard place bc of the timing and to let me know when he was free to discuss this as I had a couple questions about it. and that I wish he would have come to me about this issue.
I dont know if that was 'right' but it felt good to be honest about the predicament he had put me in. At first he responded that he was going to bed so can he call me the next day. It was only 9pm...so it seemed to me he was just avoiding dealing with the issue. But I just said ok and when I would be available (ie not while at work) but then he called anyway(what happened to bed time?) I started out very calm and speaking slowly but then while trying to explain myself started speaking faster and he said, ok (understanding the problem) and said calm down (guess the agitation showed a bit there, will have to work on that for next time?) and we talked about things and he could see where he put me in a hard place and offered to help and be flexible so we could sort something out. I also mentioned I had not addressed any of the other things he asked me in his message bc I only just got home and not had time tonight. He followed thru today on what he had agreed to.
He sent a msg earlier updating me on things. I feel like I want to respond and say I appreciate the help with this and his flexibility, or something like that. Does that sound too needy/pursuey? Since he is a WOA guy I just thought it might be good to recognize verbally but dont want to go over the top. He has responded well to this in the past. Maybe I am at the complete wrong place to be thinking about this tho?
Enough about H now....I have had a good week, one of the best in a while (minus the blip w the bills), I feel I handled it ok, got it sorted and moved on, no worrying, obsessing, or dwelling. And the anger only lasted a little bit before I got back on top of things. Work has been good all week, and I have been to another class at the gym tonight and am feeling good for it. I have had nice comfortable evenings and cooked myself a nice dinner each night. I have entertained myself, since most of my friends I know in town are all down with the flu. After I have done all that each evening after work theres not actually much time left before I go to bed! I am planning for and looking forward to the next few weeks and doing more thinking about what I want.
Me-27 H-28 M-2.5 yrs T-8.5 yrs No kids B 1/09 S 2/09
