What to do when H doesn't contact?

[beepee]

No, it's actually me that suffers from depression.
Like I said before, I wish my H was like you and actually realize that I'm sick and want to help me. Instead, he couldn't take anymore of it and left.

See, he cheated on me to begin with, and I fell into a deep depression because of it. And he tried to make it up to me but I felt like he wasn't making it up to me in the right way. I wanted him to be more affectionate and romantic and loving but instead, he'd do things like buy me stuff and try to make my life as easy and comfortable as possible by doing chores and things like that. I kept telling him that I didn't want that, and that I appreciate his efforts but in order to feel loved, I need reassurances and I needed him to be closer to me physical and more romantic and he thought I was being ungrateful.

He couldn't handle my "behavior" of constantly smothering him and trying to get his attention. He wanted me to go to counseling and I didn't but I am now and I realize how much of a mistake it was but now, even thought I'm making every effort to get better, he doesn't really care, which breaks my heart to the core. Because I stayed by him when he cheated on me, he wouldn't even hold my hand through a sickness. I think he's being more than selfish. I was too but I've learned my mistakes. I hope soon enough, he'll see how selfish he is being. I really, truly hope and pray for that everyday.