Actually to me it says he still wants to have that connection with me but I guess he doesn't want it badly enough...
Hey BBJ, I have had similar reflections in the past and occasionally have recurring ones. I guess the only way to find out what is in the LBS's mind is to actually ask the questions....which I have not done.
Anyhow, glad you are doing better.
Been there, done that...I actually have asked. Well, anyway, I have pointed out that we spend so much time together that everyone from the pastor to the counselor to his own parents want to know why we aren't back together...He just says he will always love me but doesn't know how to let go of the past/resentments/unforgiveness. And I believe that is a choice we all make, to hold on to past hurts and be miserable or to move forward and be free. I can't make his choice for him so I stop asking the question...
He came over last night, Nathan came out of bed crying for his dad at 10 and wanted to call him. So I let him. He hung up and said "Dad said he'd be here in 5 or 6 minutes..." Um, ok. So he showed up 15 min later, Nathan was asleep on the couch. He woke him up, cuddled him, then carried him to bed after about 10 minutes.
Then he walked out to check out my landscaping (in the dark!). He kept saying how great it looked, that the guys I hired (first time I ever made a plan and carried it out totally on my own, without his input) did an awesome job so far, the grading work was perfect, and for 1/4 of what the guy he had come do an estimate last year wanted to charge...
So, not that it matters, but for once he had nothing bad to say about the choices I made. Landscapers are back today finishing the patio, they have put in about 100 plants and it is awesome! I will take pics to put on FB.
