I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[The Wifey]

The crying spells have been really bad today.
Haven't been able to stop. Tried to do some physical activities. Still kept crying. Feeling really hopeless right now.

Maybe I should try to sleep now and hopefully feel better tomorrow but I took a long nap earlier because I was crying too much. I'll try to sleep now anyway. Wanna crawl under the covers until everything goes away. Not liking this feeling.

Looking forward to a brighter day tomorrow.

Beepee,

Can you understand why your brother might not be willing to sign the co-sign paper? Perhaps he sees you crumble and fall apart at the first sign of disappointment and he doesn't think getting out on your own is the best thing for you right now.

You can go into a spiral or you can re-double your efforts to make a change, to get better, and believe in yourself so he can come to believe in you, too.

Life is hard. Even without the S, life is very hard. Pinning your hopes on just that apartment, just that situation, just that location set yourself up for the disappointment that followed.

When you mentioned the reasons for your bad credit, you listed all of the loans you'd gotten, but not one bit of responsibility for any defaults. These things didn't happen to you - these are the results of your actions.

I say this not to hurt you, but to wake you up. Improving your life starts with a decision that you are tired of living like this and taking responsibility for your self.

If a crying spell comes on it is perfectly normal, because you are going through a sad, sad experience. Letting yourself cry all day is not ok. Give yourself a time, set an alarm, cry until that alarm goes off and then get up. Splash water on your face.

Had you gotten that apartment, but not had a job yet, how on earth did you expect to make the rent every month? You need a job first. Then when you get a job, a budget. Then an apartment.

Then you need to work on repairing that credit, which begins with contacting the lenders for your loans and working out a repayment plan.

You can do this. It isn't easy, but it is simple. There's a big difference between simple and easy.

Start today. Fresh day. New start. I know you can!