Hope- I could repackage what everybody else is saying using my words, but there's no point in that. You're smart enough to see the pattern in the advice you're being given.
Bottom line- you can't un-ring the bell. Take the time to think before you ring it.
Your anger and frustration are valid. But they are also detrimental when unchecked.
If you let your passions prevail, how is what you are doing any different from what your H is doing? You are bigger than this, Hope.
You can't un-ring the bell. You have nothing to lose and EVERYTHING to gain in waiting.
Please don't take offense when I say that your journey has just started. And when I say "your" journey, I mean the journey of YOU.
I will not candy-coat this for you. Standing is hard work. BUT you get SO much in return.
And the prospect of a restored M is only one of the perks!
Give this time. Lots of it. The rewards are indescribable, and worth the journey.
PATIENCE AND FORTITUDE CONQUER ALL THINGS. -Ralph Waldo Emerson
DBing and MLC take their toll....Please provide exact CHANGE. -Jimbo