Thanks for your supportive messages. I am really appreciative of them. Been super busy getting organised. Think I'm set to go now!
Tonight H phoned but didn't get onto me until the 3rd try. I didn't call him back. In the conversation I had to restrain myself because I did get a little caught up in the fear of the surgery and I did want to say I loved him. However, I didn't.
The conversation was pleasant and there was humour and it was generally very relaxed.
He said he would visit hospital with the kids over the weekend so they can see me (S drives and my parents will be staying with kids and coming up each day so kids definitely have opportunities to see me). He said he would pop in but then leave the kids visiting me because the last thing I needed was too many visitors. I'm thinking the translation there is I will pop in briefly just in case I am uncomfortable with one of the visitors but I'll stay longer if nobody else comes along to make me uncomfortable. What do you think?
He mentioned my parents once again and I feel sure he wants to have contact with them but he's scared of rejection.
He's been super quiet since our recent dinner and I know he's had to retreat after letting himself get too close. However, it's still a step forward cos before he would have had a tantrum or started a fight and now it's just avoidance.
