back after 10 weeks of recovery and need some help

[Doingitright]

On 1. She said I was just waiting (waiting around I guess) for her to say ILY instead of me. Waiting around for her to kiss me good bye instead of me initiating. Same thing for goodnight or hello when back from work.

W said she and me are just trying to keep some semblence to stability for the kids. I asked what that meant. She said A live for them of security for a few months. I asked what a few months meant and she said ok a year or more. I clearly was not happy with this discussion and she asked did I want an inhouse seperation. I said some has been doing their research because I don't know what that means. She said when she brought it up 7 months ago ( seperation) I said we can't afford to live in seperate places withe the current finacial sitch.

She had a real problem with me this evening and asked what I was doing on my cell. She went as far as to go in the house while I was on the porch and then quickly dart to the window and she saw me pickup my cell. I was just typing out a list of things to do around the house. She thought it must be something else

She then said MC said something powerful.. this (us) could work if we thought it was worth it. She said she didn't think it was worth it. That was not exactly what was said but she did this before to rationalize what she was doing. She loves pulling 1 item to make all things true.

W needs us to stay together so she can go to school. She can't go to nightschool without someone to watch the kids from schools out til 11 pm 4 nights a week for 6 months.