Newbie with WAW 3

[ShockedOne]

WOW! I just got accused of having someone on the side! Are you effing kidding me? I was actually pulled up on and checked on! WOW! Insecurities?

[ShockedOne]

You know what guys? I think I may be done here. She has drained me fuc-/!g dry. I don't know if I can take this anymore!

[Bravehardt]

Shocked

I'm just catching up on your sitch. Let the emotions ride the coaster. I find myself to close to my sitch every other day it seems.

I'm right where your at DONE.

But I'll feel different tommorrow.

The information we absorb from here is so awesome, but I seem to trip myself up when I need it the most.

I find myself not following the don't believe anything you here from her and only half of what you see rule. If I would just follow this I'd be in great shape.

For me it has alot to do with her and the kids.

Sunday night she said she'd be over after work tommorrow to see the kids. So I made sure they were all home. Left the oldest in charge and I left the house before she arrived.
So I check in a couple hours later, she never came over. I was looking at some REO homes for a broker. I finished around 7pm and was home by 8, she never came by. This is the kind of BS that just really gets to me.

Around 9:30 she calls like hey whats going on, how is everyone?
M-Well geeze they were all here waiting for you since 1pm.
H-I don.t recall saying I was come by, I haven't been feeling well.
M-Last night you said I'll be over after I get off and visit with whom ever is here.
H-I don't recall saying that.
M-I don't even have anything left to say to you.
H-I'm sorry blah blah blah.
M-I guess the conversation we had last night was just in my mind, I must have made it up....
M- Well I hope your feeling better.

When will it end.

[ShockedOne]

Brave, Thatbis horrid behavior on hr part. The thing tearing me up tonight is just the lack of respect. I am not going to tollerate being called names and being disrespected. But the more I fight it, the worse it becomes. Then I almost always get some sort of text 10 minutes latr about how mean I am. I am reaching the end of my rope.

[Bravehardt]

Shocked

Just put on gods armor and let everything she says or does, not affect you.

Or you can tell her that she is being disrespectful to you and you don't appreciate it. And then say nothing!

My wife believes I should be funding her adventure, F##k That

She is pissed that D 6 and myself are going away next week for several days. She'll be staying at the house with D 14 and S 17 due to Football and Marching Band obligations.

The money I'm using to get away should be going to her cause.
No way You need to own it baby!

[ShockedOne]

I know. I told her tonight I am not a doormat. That did not go over well. BUT, that is now I felt.

[Orich]

I was at DONE at the beginning of last week. I even received a 3 page letter outlining how W doesn't love me, maybe never did. I accepted the letter, and made a phone call to start getting legal advise on separation, etc. 3 days later I get a text message saying she regrets sending the letter, and that she must still love me.
Still and all, I will only fight until I am sure there is no more hope. But with WAS's, you never know, I guess.

[ShockedOne]

I hate this stage. This is the toughest few days I have ever had in my life. I have never been called so many names, told to F off so many time is my life, and in the end of all of it, the last text I get of the night has a I'll always love you attached to it. And now I feel like am being the bad guy. I didn't choose this path, this one was gift wrapped and handed to me with no choices involved.

Just when I think I am truly finished with fighting, I don't want to be finished anymore, and I want to fight harder.

Orich, I am so sorry to hear that she sent you a letter like that. That had to be crushing to your spirits like no other. I am glad to hear she at least made an attempt to rescind it. I wish you the best in all of this. I just looked back into your sitch, and hope things can continue to improve for you.

[ShockedOne]

So today was an odd day again. Told W that BIL had invited to come meet them camping in a few weeks. W is again on tangent about how she knows who truly loves her, implying that her family is dumping her. Man it has to be tough living in that fog. It has completely clouded her judgement on everything.

[Bravehardt]

Shocked

The fog is geting thickeeeeeeeeeeeeer.

I just posted on my thread. I had a real weird day also. I need some insight from some of the experts here. Hopefully they can disect me for a little while.

My wife seems to be talking to me more each day even though she ends up getting mad. The most I've seen in 4 months. Maybe some baby steps coming my way. Can't wait for what's next.

It does feel good holding your own when talking to them doesn't it. I'm at a place where I don't care what she says hurtful to me anymore. Don't get me wrong I do feel it but not as much.

It's so nice to come here and vent.

Have you been sleeping?

I woke up at 4:44 the last couple of nights. Prior to that its been 3:33. My sister thinks their is some cosmical reason. I read the other day that from 3:00 to 6:00 is the time the lord responds to us.