Shocked

I'm just catching up on your sitch. Let the emotions ride the coaster. I find myself to close to my sitch every other day it seems.

I'm right where your at DONE.

But I'll feel different tommorrow.

The information we absorb from here is so awesome, but I seem to trip myself up when I need it the most.

I find myself not following the don't believe anything you here from her and only half of what you see rule. If I would just follow this I'd be in great shape.

For me it has alot to do with her and the kids.

Sunday night she said she'd be over after work tommorrow to see the kids. So I made sure they were all home. Left the oldest in charge and I left the house before she arrived.
So I check in a couple hours later, she never came over. I was looking at some REO homes for a broker. I finished around 7pm and was home by 8, she never came by. This is the kind of BS that just really gets to me.

Around 9:30 she calls like hey whats going on, how is everyone?
M-Well geeze they were all here waiting for you since 1pm.
H-I don.t recall saying I was come by, I haven't been feeling well.
M-Last night you said I'll be over after I get off and visit with whom ever is here.
H-I don't recall saying that.
M-I don't even have anything left to say to you.
H-I'm sorry blah blah blah.
M-I guess the conversation we had last night was just in my mind, I must have made it up....
M- Well I hope your feeling better.

When will it end.


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Seperated 3/2009
. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze." Isaiah 43:2