Trying to cope with H, IA/EA (was Newbie-1st post)

[Gardener]

Ashlee,

Yes, perhaps I deserve a lecture... I know I'm causing more pain for myself. What is interesting about this is it confirmed a suspicion I had.

No lecture from me. Causing more pain for yourself or arming yourself with facts and dispelling suspicion? Only you can say.

H and I got into again this afternoon. H says he's still 'so confused', 'just doesn't know', 'needs to pull his head out of his a$$' etc... H tells me if roles were reversed, he would have left me 2 months ago.

Poor, poor baby.

Later H asks to have sex and once again, I explain the reasons it's not gonna happen. Then H tells me sex will "help him feel closer to me." H also tried the "You're pushing me further away but not having sex with me."

It's all your fault, Ash.
Has he always been this unattractively childish when it comes to sex? You don't have to answer, just wondering/pointing it out.

I don't need to tell you guys but it's just so hard to watch the one you love piss on everything that means anything.

You sure don't, but get it out, anyway. Amen, Sister Ashlee.