Isn't it funny that I'm actually afraid of myself in a way if that makes sense. I've been such a softy with H that I'm afraid of getting back there and having this guys take me for a ride. And I'm definitely afraid of opening up to him totally but at the same time I feel like I'm opening up to him again. Last night I pulled out my bible ( not to defame the good Lord), the book Why Men Love Bitches. I think I need to keep reread that book over and over again, and btw I total recommend as well. Mdoodles, if you read this, buy this book!!!!
