Hi Arwen,
Wow, I read your sitch it IS very similar to mine. I do wish you the best of luck as well.

My H called me this morning just to say hi and see how I was doing. We didn't talk much about our R. We talked mostly about work and a dr appt I had this morning. He brought up R. He just said he wasn't sure what was going to happen, but whatever did happen we would both be ok. I told him that I did not want us to rush into a divorce because we could be making a big mistake. So he said he wasn't sure if it was a mistake or not. He wasn't sure what would happen, but that either way, no matter what, I would always be a part of his life. I just don't understand that!! How can I be good enough for him to not be able to let me go, but not good enough to keep as his wife?? We have some friends that went through a D recently. For a year and a half they went through problems and court and attorneys and finally divorced...only to reconcile right after the D was final. So my husband says "we could end up like that". So I told him, I would rather try to work it out first and if it doesn't work, then get D. Not go through the money and drama of a D, to find out it was the wrong thing to do.