Mixed emotions in that post!? Mules, you are still dealing with a lot about your marriage ending, your wife's behavior, the boys holding onto a reconciliation possiblity and now you have a new woman you like. That's a Category 5 hurricane of emotions!

Forgiveness. I think it is hard to forgive when the other person doesn't validate the hurt and pain they have caused to you. You have been taking great care of the boys, working to save your marriage and keep the family together and what have you got in return? It's normal to be hurt, bitter, and frustrated for a while. It gets easier to forgive when you can have compassion and empathy for the other person. Pray for your enemies. The Greek has taught in Sunday school that if you don't know what to pray for then start by praying this, "God, help her to have comfortable shoes." Start then then work up.
This isn't going to get worked out overnight. Lot's of growing and learning still to take place in the Mules household. You know you can handle it.

Strength and Honor

Cheers

M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.