Not Me...Ever part 2

[mac-ct]

Sweets,

The only things you'll fail at are the things you don't try

Grab it - and go to your room

Whoop and another Whooop

A very GIDDY Mac (need food!)

[Serenity13]

Sweets...

For 38 years I have always had someone by my side...

I don't know how to be alone...

Of course I will try...I have to

I just don't want to fail this...

I have felt like I have pretty much failed everything else in my life and I just can't take another at this point.

[mac-ct]

Bull manure and you know it.

No-one with you - you have two kiddywinks physically there.

Alone? Hon - I'm ALONE - but not quite - have the fishies, the dogletts and everyone here. I have freinds and a depressed mate all the way round the other side of the planet (UK) who I enjoy chatting crud to.

You are blessed in the same way Serenity.

Stop shoving manure onto yourself. You pong

A cheery Mac

[Serenity13]

LMAO...

What the hell is a "pong" - Off to Google - "An unpleasent smell"? I don't smell bad at all

I know I am blessed...I just don't want to make the wrong decision for my boys...

I want to know that the decisions I make are the best for them, me and hubby if he chooses to come home...

BTW - I saw a red cardinal today - You remember I specifically asked God for a red cardinal as a sign that my choices are the correct ones (about 2 weeks ago)...

Took 1 week before I saw the first one and then I haven't seen any until this morning when I dropped the little one off before work...

There he was in all his beautiful red glory sitting on a power line right above my truck...

I thanked God right then and there for the sign...

Didn't think much more of it since the peace was instilled and about 15 minutes ago - Guess who called?

He was checking on me and the boys...

He said he missed us and loved me and the boys...

That is what gives me the strength to continue...

God took what I asked for, sent me the signs and then had hubby call me...

And right there my friend is why I do what I do regardless of who says what and how bad I feel on any given day...

That restores my faith in myself and my stand and gives me the peace inside that I am doing the right thing and eventually he will be home.

[mac-ct]

Ohhhh very yeah

Now put your a$$ back on

Mac

[Serenity13]

I am good...I want you to read what I posted to Alex yesterday...

"My friend I think you are correct...

I couldn't even begin to imagine life with a new person however that may be what the future holds...

It may be the same husband who is a new person or a new man all together however I will be a better person because of this...

I will be a stronger woman because of this...

I will be a better mother because of this...

I have more faith then I ever did before...

I have more strength then I ever thought possible...

I have inner peace and that came from within...

I have courage to face each day instead of hide from it...

I have the wisdom of the people who have been here longer then me...

I have the generosity of those same people who come here and share with me (and all of us) the ways I am doing right and the ways I am doing wrong...

I have the security of the love I receive from God...I also have his protection because he will never let me fall flat on my face...

In my heart, I know we will all be just fine."

This is how I need to feel each and every single day...I printed this out...My own words to throw in my own face when I get down a bit

[mac-ct]

Ohhhh yeah!

I think the pranny is still in there (good for you!)...

"the same husband who is a new person"

Other people here did it. I did it (just didn't stick last time). You will do it.

Watch for the birds Serenity. They come in threes (or is that trees?).

A very birdalogically confused Mac

[Serenity13]

I googled pranny and apparently that is an offensive word

Never heard of the birds coming in 3's (death of celebrities but not birds) but I do look for them everyday...When I feel lower then low along one comes so I have faith God is doing that for me...Just to pick me up when I need it the most...

[mac-ct]

Serenity - I've decided to start using words that don't contain ^%$@.

I 'recon the "censors" here have better things to do than Google every fifth word I type

And now off to my culinary delights and a well earned stretch of kip.

You have the most magnificent of afternoons.
Sleep well Serenity. Really mean that.

((((((Serenity))))))

Mac

[Serenity13]

(((((Mac)))))

LOL...I know the feeling...Normally I have to go back and censor my own post because it is filled with cursing...I can curse in Italian however most wouldn't know what I was saying

Have a wonderful meal and a wonderful sleep filled with sweet dreams