How do you wait this out?

[Golfgirl1]

Mach1..thanks for the insights.

I want to make the changes in me, I already like what I'm seeing and I know this is a journey I am supposed to be on. I know my teaching job is also where I am supposed to land, I just have to let GOD help me in finding my way and allowing what is supposed to happen, happen.

I like to be in control, I like things predictable and this has shaken me to the core. My job and my marriage have both imploded on me and some days I can barely get out of bed. I try hard to breathe, do yoga, garden, walk the dogs, but I need some of my life back...