How do you wait this out?

[cat04]

I read the same article this morning. Would love to print it of for H but I won't. If his health issues are not enough of a clue to him, the article will mean nothing.

How long does it take? Depends on you. Depends on H. Depends on so much. This is also a journey for you. You have things to deal with, overcome, accept. And of course, H will do things that will throw you out of your "better" place when you get there and even as you are getting there.

I've been at this for a long time. I think on Fallgirl's thread I gave her a sort of breakdown of my journey, which is not over by the way. It was either her's or Trustinginfaith's, but I believe FG. You are welcome to read it just to see that it really is a process.

In the meantime think of it like this, if H came home tomorrow and said, I was wrong, I want back in, I love you, what would be different? Would you have travelled your path enough to NOT go back to the strained communication style, would you be able to say I forgive you and myself for the problems and never bring them up again, would this be a new M or a repeat of the old? Because a repeat of the old will bring you back to this place in the long run.