I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[Virtually_Handsome]

When you know when you are moving send ONE email.

I will be moving XXXXX. If you want anything from here you will need to get it before that.

NOT ANOTHER WORD. It is not your problem, but letting him have a chance to collect the stuff is the polite thing to do, and we don't want to sink to his level!

(((((beepee)))))

Now try to go at least two posts in a row without mentioning "he who must not be named"!

[davidswife]

I agree with VH -- but as he said -- ONE AND ONLY ONE E-MAIL!!

[beepee]

When you know when you are moving send ONE email.

Sounds good, but I've been so good with the NC thing that I don't even want to break that and send an email for him to get the stuff!

We'll see what happens and how I feel when the time comes.

Well today was very productive. I managed to acheive every goal that I had posted earlier...except get a smoothie.
Oh and also couldn't put in the application because my B didn't finish the paperwork and is now having doubts. Sigh.
I feel like I will never get out of here. And because I feel like I'm never going to get out, I feel like my situation will never get better. But thats negative thinking and like I said, I'm ridding myself of negativity. I hope he will decide to finish the paperwork by tomorrow.. If not, I will have to find another apartment or put in an application by myself. But, I'm keeping the hope alive nonetheless.

I'm very happy with my work today, I now have 100 items up on eBay! And they're doing quite well right now, I'm up to $200 so far with 9 days to go! Hopefully it goes up quite high. I really need the money.

One of the great things about being separated is the amount of time I have with my friends and the closer we've become. We're all planning a kayaking trip soon and I'm really excited yet still worried about the money to pay for it. Oh, and one of my really good friends just got engaged! I'm so happy for her .. but she's not happy herself. He didn't propose in the romantic way she wanted to. So she's having doubts. Which I think is valid but still silly. She doesn't tell him what she wants, which is a mistake I've always made and assumes that he would know what she wants. I desperately tried to get her to read some relationship books but she doesnt want to and doesnt think she needs it because love shouldn't be that way, it should be romantic always. Its delusional and I think she's setting herself up for failure and heartache. I don't want her to end up in the same position as me 2 years from now. But, she's gonna do what she's gonna do. Something I can't control. I can only give her some advice and she can choose to take it or not. I just hope she makes the right decision.

I can't believe I did all my laundry!!! and yes, Stacy, it is ridiculous that a grown woman like myself has not done laundry for over 6 weeks. I'm glad I did it all at once, its actually still drying, there's so much! All these tasks that I find daunting and can't get myself to do, they all make me feel better once I JUST DO IT. I have to work on getting the motivation to do it. Or if I don't have the motivation, I need to think about how good I feel about myself when I just go ahead and force myself to do it.

I'm getting tired now. I have to figure out what my goals are for tomorrow or I'm going to wallow again.

1) Clean bedroom

2) HOPEFULLY put in application for apt and email potential roommie

3) Apply for more jobs

4) Fold laundry which I didn't get a chance to do today

5) Start tackling everything in the basement from the studio


That's all I can think of right now. I hope that's enough to keep me busy tomorrow. My life is quite dull right now!! Just trying to pick myself up and get back on track right now and gearing myself up for an exciting life to come!

Love Will Find A Way

[The Wifey]

Beep Beep!

You are doing good, honey. Keep it up!

[beepee]

You are doing good, honey. Keep it up!

And I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping me reach this point

[The Wifey]

We helped, but it has been all you. You should be proud of what you have done so far. Keep reaching just beyond your comfort zone. The more you grow, the better you will feel.

[Gardener]

Beepee,

One of the great things about being separated is

Well, listen to you!

I gotta l'arn me that there ebay thingy, m'self. Start to empty This Old House and "destuffify".

Keep beepin', you!

[The Wifey]

I have a theme song for you... Have you heard the one that goes, beep beep, here comes my baby in his jeep jeep?

You are doing so good!

[davidswife]

Beep,

Good for you -- keep the positive momentum going!!

Stacy

[beepee]

Wifey: Can't say I've heard the song but I'm likin' it anyway!

Gardener: I can teach you everything you need to know about eBay, I'm THE master at listing items!

davidswife: thanks so much! keep kicking my butt when I spiral down, but I'll try harder so you don't have to!

journaling..

Today is an absolutely STUNNING day. Blue skies again!
But I just woke up to a sore throat and toothache. I have a feeling it's my wisdom tooth, or maybe I need a root canal. Yikes. Well, my insurance doesn't cover dental and I don't have the money for it right now anyway, so I just have to put up with it for awhile. I hope it goes away soon.

So I've got a few things to do today. I'm really anxious to get that application in but since my brother isn't even awake yet, can't do it yet. I don't even know if he has decided to go ahead and do it. I wish he would've said somethng to me sooner than waiting almost a week to tell me he's having doubts. Im going to continue searching for more apts and see what I can find. Send out resumes too! I'm so sick of doing that. But in this economy, I have to apply to a million to even get one interview so I know I have to just keep it up.

I feel a bit low today, need to pick myself up with something fun. Maybe I will go get that smoothie but it's expensive and I just had to pay off a negative balance in my bank which took a huge chunk of my deposit money Well either way, I have to do something because I'm feeling the sadness coming on.

a little something that always stops me from wallowing..

And to those of you who moan your lives from one day to the next.
Well let them take you next.
Cause you live and be thankful you're here.
See it could be you, tomorrow, next year.

-guillemots