New to this Community seeking advice

[JR09]

Hi Veronica,

Well,I am OK. I am hanging in there. I am trying to maintain a good front at work, at home, on the phone when talking with my kids. It sure isn't easy. I sometimes wonder how much longer can I endure this.

This whole DBing is like a mental run. I am told to run, but I don't know the distance and how long I have to run. I just keep running and I am getting tired. But every time I think of stopping, I always get this feeling that it's not the right time yet to stop the race. Faith has a lot to do with it. My mindset is that I surrender everything to a higher power and pray for my WAW's heart to soften. I have to admit I have become a very calm person after more than a year of separation. I amaze myself at how I respond to people, situations. Just calm, composed, and level-headed. I wasn't like this a year ago, or even 6 months ago. I cry less, I joke more, I am just a kind person...at least in my mind.

I have to say I love and miss my W terribly. I think I love her now even more. Anyway...gotta keep running that run. Can't quit yet. I don't feel it yet. DBing has become a way of life and a lifesaver.

JR