Thanks for the words of support on my dog. It still feels so awful not to have him here w/me. I'm getting better and more adjusted to living w/out him, but I do miss that little guy.
Did you get a chance to see his FB pictures yet?
As for GF, thanks also for the validation that I'm doing the right thing. I wasn't sure last night but today's events seemed to cement in my head that we'll be just fine as long as I continue to give her space and let her get out what she needs to do w/her ex, her job status, etc.
So, she had a rough day today and sent me a text telling me about it and mentioning that her dog had got out. She was crushed and I knew she was stressed, so I thought the right thing to do would be to go out and try and find her dog.
I drove over to her place and looked in the yard and to my surprise, she was at home. I told her why I was there and she invited me in and we chatted for a short while and then I left. When I was leaving, she reached for me to kiss and that was a very good sign.
So, I went home and about my business (oh, and the dog was found, by the way), when she sent a text asking me what I was doing and then following up by saying she hadn't been able to do anything b/c her infant son wouldn't leave her alone. So, I asked if she needed a distraction and she invited me over for dinner. She also mentioned her wanting me to not stay as she had previously said she needed time and space (no biggie to me as I'm willing to wait for this one).
We ate and then I picked up her teenage daughter for her so she could put her son down. When I got back, she was completely immersed in her resume and job applications and I said, "I'm taking off and I'll talk to you later, ok?" Well, she got a bit mad at me that I was leaving w/out kissing her and told me to hang on and let her finish.
She walked me outside and I mentioned I didn't want to disturb her as she looked focused, and she pretty much told me that it wasn't acceptable for me to just leave w/out kissing her good-bye and talking a bit first.
So, we chatted - both seriously and playfully - and she put her bare toes on mine as she stood in front of me and I leaned on the house. Again, she made the move to kiss me good night (which then I followed up on, of course) and I went home.
My plan was to simply "back off" and not pressure her at all, but tonight made it pretty clear that she's still wanting us to be something and we'll be something for a bit of a spell. It is very evident that she is as in to me as I am her and now I can relax a bit and just "let things be" for a while.
It is good to feel wanted and as I've said before, I'm content to wait and be patient.
She said in her text that she didn't like how we've met when she's in the midst of all this personal strife and turmoil and I told her we'd have our time for us very soon. However, for now, although I'm her boyfriend, my role is to be more than a lover as friend and partner are also part of the job description.
Truth is, I'd be happier if we hadn't met under these circumstances, but we're together for a reason and I'm a big believer that if you wait for a "perfect time" you'll never find it. I'm also going to continue to live w/out being afraid from now on, so maybe I'm taking a big risk that won't pan out. If not, I'll be ok, but I'm thinking I'd rather swing for the fences than to take three strikes.
At least she knows I'm on her side and now I'm pretty convinced she's very glad I'm there. All of her stresses will be ending soon (although she doesn't think so, but honestly, nothing is ever permanent, so they're bound to wrap up sooner or later), and then we'll really be able to spend time w/each other for each other. That's when the fun will really begin.
