Thanks folks!All those virtual hugs are just a great way to start my day!
Yes, I feel I`m restoring my balance again after Sunday`s blow up. Was civil to H even though I knew he was seething with me.I just did as I would do if he weren`t around, left my phone lying around so he could check it(he did), played piano, went for a walk. I spoke to him about the kids just to drop into his subconsicous that we have to keep watchful of them and to let him no that I wasn`t going to engage in the silent treatment game.
One of the blessings of this painful place is that I`m so appreciative of friendship. A couple of gfs rang me out of the blue yesterday so I`ve made arrangements to have a couple of fun days out with them soon. No they don`t know out sitch either.
Beginnersmind, I don`t beat myself up over the past, honestly. I just feel its important-and humbling!-to realise what a bitch I was!This pain can make me a better person for everyone!
H and I had fantastic times.So that gives me some hope that we may get through this. DB is giving me more hope than anything else-particularly all you ((((((friends)))))) and I have had very many blessings in the real world particularly with my sister,my family, my children who hare helping me through this in their own way.
Yes, Cat my H is on the Slow Motion Stuff too. I think he sprinkles it on his breakfast cereal every morning... Has obviously upped the dose lately!
Yeah, Jeff, keep your eye on this space! I`m not done yet!!
