I totally have to agree with you Silver Fox. Tonight I was sitting and really thinking that in a way it does not feel real to him bc whenever HE wants HE can speak to me. Granted I don't pick up that second, but we are talking within 4 hrs or so, I give him a call or a text back. One of my friends suggested that I cut off all communications until Divorce day and then just meet him at the court. Make it a 45 day program! Right now, he checks in with me once a week to make sure all is well and I give him this "fun" me and we talk for an hour and well, that is that. He has been calling a lot this last week, but I am really thinking that I just need to really show a break myself. I am emotionally giving him a crutch.
Trixi !!! OH MY G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He has used every single one of those lines and at first I thought "well, ok, I guess he is confused"..........as time goes by, I am thinking "you're confused and you have no idea what you are doing".
On the one hand I do know and have accepted that we are getting a divorce. A part of me just wants to stop trying all together. I mean how much worse can it get. I will be divorced in a month and a half! He is kidding himself if he thinks we can just pick up and brush ourselves off and start over. Yesterday morning he called and said I should be careful not to have male co-workers coming over to my home......cuz things can get confusing and intimate very quickly.
I had half a mind to say............and so? You want a divorce, but I should be faithful to you? Not that I would or could even think of a R right now.........but, who is he to tell me anything when he is filing and following thru on Divorcing me!
Sigh. Anyways, it was really nice to read your responses. Thanks for the input.
I am going to go the next 45 days without initiating one phone call or email or any contact. I am going to try to not be so available. And I will not fear this Divorce anymore! I have spent the last few weeks in fear of being alone...but truth be known I have been on my own most of my life.
Other than that, I wish you all a good day tomorrow!
