I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

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When you know when you are moving send ONE email.

Sounds good, but I've been so good with the NC thing that I don't even want to break that and send an email for him to get the stuff!

We'll see what happens and how I feel when the time comes.

Well today was very productive. I managed to acheive every goal that I had posted earlier...except get a smoothie.
Oh and also couldn't put in the application because my B didn't finish the paperwork and is now having doubts. Sigh.
I feel like I will never get out of here. And because I feel like I'm never going to get out, I feel like my situation will never get better. But thats negative thinking and like I said, I'm ridding myself of negativity. I hope he will decide to finish the paperwork by tomorrow.. If not, I will have to find another apartment or put in an application by myself. But, I'm keeping the hope alive nonetheless.

I'm very happy with my work today, I now have 100 items up on eBay! And they're doing quite well right now, I'm up to $200 so far with 9 days to go! Hopefully it goes up quite high. I really need the money.

One of the great things about being separated is the amount of time I have with my friends and the closer we've become. We're all planning a kayaking trip soon and I'm really excited yet still worried about the money to pay for it. Oh, and one of my really good friends just got engaged! I'm so happy for her .. but she's not happy herself. He didn't propose in the romantic way she wanted to. So she's having doubts. Which I think is valid but still silly. She doesn't tell him what she wants, which is a mistake I've always made and assumes that he would know what she wants. I desperately tried to get her to read some relationship books but she doesnt want to and doesnt think she needs it because love shouldn't be that way, it should be romantic always. Its delusional and I think she's setting herself up for failure and heartache. I don't want her to end up in the same position as me 2 years from now. But, she's gonna do what she's gonna do. Something I can't control. I can only give her some advice and she can choose to take it or not. I just hope she makes the right decision.

I can't believe I did all my laundry!!! and yes, Stacy, it is ridiculous that a grown woman like myself has not done laundry for over 6 weeks. I'm glad I did it all at once, its actually still drying, there's so much! All these tasks that I find daunting and can't get myself to do, they all make me feel better once I JUST DO IT. I have to work on getting the motivation to do it. Or if I don't have the motivation, I need to think about how good I feel about myself when I just go ahead and force myself to do it.

I'm getting tired now. I have to figure out what my goals are for tomorrow or I'm going to wallow again.

1) Clean bedroom

2) HOPEFULLY put in application for apt and email potential roommie

3) Apply for more jobs

4) Fold laundry which I didn't get a chance to do today

5) Start tackling everything in the basement from the studio


That's all I can think of right now. I hope that's enough to keep me busy tomorrow. My life is quite dull right now!! Just trying to pick myself up and get back on track right now and gearing myself up for an exciting life to come!

Love Will Find A Way