Well, friends, just to touch base.....not much has been happening really. I am doing OK but feeling a little depressed still.
I keep thinking of H and my sitch much of the time and I get very frustrated with myself. The few interactions I've had with H are co-operative and even friendly, and I feel that my decision to really let go and move on is the right one for me. So, why is it still on my mind all the time!!??? I am doing dance lessons and going to concerts and still doing my Water Aerobics, and other "GAL" things, but my thoughts are still constantly drawn back to H.
He is not the man I (or he) thought he was. I don't want the man he is. I am happy that we are able to work together for our common good. But, I still mourn the loss, even if it's only the loss of what was ultimately a fantasy. I just wish these thoughts/feelings would go away!!!
One sorta interesting developement..... without going into all the complicated detail, it turns out that it very well may be the best financial outcome "as a whole" for the dream property to be under my name for the bankruptcy. Amazingly, H even seems willing to agree to this!! He said "Well I guess I will just have to trust you the way you were going to have to trust me!" Of course, I won't believe it until he signs on the dotted line, but I am still amazed that he even seemed willing to contemplate the idea. Of course, he knows that I am completely trustworthy and he can feel safe when I say that we will "switch back the houses" after the Chapter 13 bankruptcy term is done. He knows I meant it when I said that I look at that property as a gift of love and therefore unconditionally his. It's still sort of ironic .....
Keepin on keepin on.......
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd
He said "Well I guess I will just have to trust you the way you were going to have to trust me!" Of course, I won't believe it until he signs on the dotted line, but I am still amazed that he even seemed willing to contemplate the idea. Of course, he knows that I am completely trustworthy and he can feel safe when I say that we will "switch back the houses" after the Chapter 13 bankruptcy term is done. He knows I meant it when I said that I look at that property as a gift of love and therefore unconditionally his. It's still sort of ironic .....
