Another Waw

[Refuse to quit]

Well nothing exciting has really happened. When I saw the W on Friday and then on Sat. she was being really stand offish. Not sure why. I can't understand why she is so cool to me sometimes and then acts so cold other times. Seems like that would take so much energy. The coach told me to expect this. She would get close then run over and over again. Its hard and I hate all of the high school games she seems to be playing. I have come to the understanding that I have done and am doing all I can to be the best me and dad I can be. I know the ball is in her court. I know when all of this started she blamed me for everyting. Although I know I had my issues I know it is not normal to bail on a relationship. I know at this point the ball is in her court. She can decided to change if she wants to. I am getting to the point where I just want all of this to be over. I am tired of dealing with it. Went to the doctors today and have the shingles from stress, being overworked, lack of sleep, etc. I had it about 10 years ago. I feel like things just keep piling on. Funny thing is when I found out I just laughed about it. Oh well I know it will be over in a week or so. Wish the R would be back together then too.
RTQ