he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

so he is here. im shocked he came in the house, shocked.

he played with son in the back, i saw him on his cell so i just had to yell at to son to see if he wanted a drink. im sure he was talking to psycho and im sure psycho heard me.

i did not talk to him yet. i am staying away. he just took son next door to his parents house.

im hoping for an uneventful visit and perhaps break the silence over the phone in the next few days.

i hate that i care what he is thinking or how he feels. what about me? or maybe i care that he isnt caring what im thinking or feeling. maybe i have shown him in the past nothing im feeling matters because i always forgive him.

not sure that im making sense.