K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I think what you are seeing if me advising people that I have found who have more hope than they realize. I am trying to keep them from getting to the point where I got in my M. It is easy to see other people's situations and look at it and say, there are things there that you still have to work with. You are not as bad off as you think. So I try and hit them off before they take it further down the drain. The things I am advising them of are things I wish myself that I would have done earlier on before it got this bad.

I also find that it helps me to help those other people.

As everyone says, mine teaches you what not to do by how bad off it is now. I am not doing any of those things anymore. But it is a long road back from all the mistakes I made in this process. That doesn't mean it is impossible. I think with God and me doing what I need to even mine can be restored. It just is not going to be a quick turn around at all barring a miracle from the big guy above.

But you are right. I am in the fight of my life. I have never had a bigger fight in my life. And I am taking it head on, but I could still be doing much better in my PMA and GAL.

Kevin