Im sure there will be bumps ahead, such as what I posted earlier, the fact that she sees her IC tomorrow night, and her IC has been helping her to move on after divorcing me. It was after her last session with her IC that she wrote that devastating letter to me. But I saw the doubt in her mind, the hesitation. It exists. She once made mw sit through a movie called "The Notebook". The general premise is that there is an elderly man trying to get his wife to remember him by reading a diary she kept. He would read it over and over again, and once in a while she would remember him. Then, shortly afterwards, she would forget again, and he would try all over again. Their grown children try to dissuade him from doing this, fearing he is wasting what is left of his own life. I feel like him a little bit here. I DB and GAL and LRT, even to the point of people telling me to stop, it isn't worth the effort, she is already gone. But then I get those moments, those flashes of my W the way I remember her, loving, joyful, happy to be with me. Usually, they don't last long. But they are there, therefore I cannot give up trying.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
