I didn't mean that you were backsliding out of religion in terms of faith (reread post). I meant backsliding in terms of using it as a means to build you up.

It's what C and AA was also supposed to do, but you dropped out of those. Religion and belief in God is great. But He gives you the resources you need to take care of yourself. In your case, from day one it's been your self-esteem.

You can quote all the scriptures you want, but it's not going to help your self-esteem and not going to help you feel better about yourself. That's the key. You have to feel good about YOURSELF not what you're doing for the day or weekend, but YOU.

I don't know how many people have come through here telling you the same things over and over again, and you just don't listen. Then you turn around and say "why won't my W come back?" wah wah.

What did your friend the priest suggest you do?

Do you really think God will change your W's opinion? Or do you think He gives YOU the OPPORTUNITY to change your W's opinion?

He gives you all the time and resources you need. The rest is up to you. That's where freewill comes in.

You keep saying "well I'm going out with friends, etc." and you consider that GAL. If that is, why are you back here asking the same questions? Why are you here feeling just as depressed as you were on the day your W left?

It's because you haven't done the one thing that GAL is supposed to do. Strengthen your self-esteem. Strengthen yourself.


M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER