Yep, another WAW - in last resort

[lonelywolf]

I didn't mean it to sound pitiful.

I just meant that I've realized I've been way too comfortable these last few years, and that it caused me to take my family for granted to some extent. I meant more that I need to be a little less complacent and work harder - discomfort/pain can help me stay on my toes and work harder at being better.

However, I am not sending messages to my wife about living with pain. I'm maintaining a positive outlook and GALing - but if she's getting any info, its from my weekly letters to our kids. The closest those get to pity is "I miss you and will see you soon" (I don't think she's told the kids about the divorce yet, so in my letters I'm acting as though our original plan is in effect - once this seasonal job is over, we get back together). Mostly I just tell the kids about what work I'm doing and discuss favorite memories and tell them about whatever else I might do (I'm going to perform at a street fair in a month or so, for example).