im so nervous to see him. so nervous. he called son back before, i was in the shower, didnt answer and son didnt answer either.

maybe he wont be as bitter as im expecting if he keeps calling the house.

i know i shouldnt care, but i do. isnt that my problem overall?

i dont know how to not care.

this is the hardest thing i have ever been through and i hope the hardest thing i ever have to face.

my home was sold at auction today. who ever thinks this will happen them? no one. atleast not me. not people like us who were always in top financial standing.

its becoming too much, i can feel it. but, im smart enough to say, dont lose it now, because even if u lose it now, the problems are still there to be dealt with.


me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09