Come into the cave with me and I will shine a light for you...
It isn't a fun place to be when every part of you screams out to call or email...
After I had words with my Pastor yesterday I realized something...
In the dark, I am happier then when we are inter-acting...
I don't have to listen to the crap...
I don't have to hear how I have made him unhappy or how our entire marriage was a lie...
I have God on my side, my family, my friends, my boys, my Church, my self-respect, my dignity, my self-esteem will return over time and I can leave my house with my head held high...
What does he have? Lies, guilt, shame, a reletionship built on what?
He hasn't spoken to me since I burst his little bubble and let him know I knew in fact that the FT did indeed live here...
And for now I am ok with that...:)
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
