How do you wait this out?

[Golfgirl1]

Hopeful,
You got that right...I live TOTALLY in the what if's. I blame myself constantly and just want to go back in time because then I would have known what to do differently. I read an old post by Snodderly that seems to help; just knowing it's not a personal attack on me. Thanks to everyone for listening to me and posting. All I want to do is sit here all day on the computer and wait for someone to talk to me...

Me 47
H 42
M 20 years
No kids
Bomb 5/09