FG, you are very hard on yourself. It all takes time, this journey. A very long time.
First and foremost, if you really fear that your h might harm you, you need to do something about that.
I lived with someone who put me down. I allowed myself to believe the I was inadequate, not good enough. And I blamed myself for everything that was wrong.
But, I have come to realize that we both have issues. We both have things we have to change. I cant help him change. But I could help me.
So, change the things about you that you feel need changing. Do it for YOU.
It isnt going to happen overnight. This is a process. A hard one. But I promise you this, this is a journey you were meant to take.
You will find you.
You did great the other night with h. Continue to let what he says go. This is about FG now. You can do this.
