I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, at this point I need to keep moving and improving.
In a way I feel like just as I am finally coming through to the other side of this, now standing in the light once again. I have this force that seemed to come from out of nowhere and is now trying to pull me back in.
It's difficult to describe. For this first time I'm really starting to see and appreciate just how difficult and long this whole process is. It's like the more positives you take away from this experience, the more you are truly put to the test.
I'm still not at all basing "sucess" on a reconcilliation. I feel so blessed to have taken away what I have from all of this, however the tight rope I had been walking and thought I had crossed just took another turn and has now become much smaller.
