I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

I dont know davidswife..

i mean, i love him, so so much.
but aren't all of us here, fighting for someone who has given up on them? fighting for someone who doesn't want to fight for us if the roles were reversed?

I guess, deep down, I still want to believe that he loves me and that he is going through a tough time and can't handle any of this right now. And I want to believe that he hasn't given up on me, but instead gave up on the relationship. He sees me as a representation of that relationship and reminds him of all the negative times and thus, won't fight for me.

I don't know, I just don't know. All I know is that I love him and people change. He may have given up on me now, and he may not fight for me now, but I hope that one day, once he has time to to think and ponder about life and what he wants in it, he will change his mind and see me as someone that is worth fighting for.

I feel it's too negative to believe that I shouldn't fight for someone who wouldn't do the same for me. I don't know why, I just think it is. I'm babbling, I don't even know what I'm talking about.

I just miss him and love him. That's all I know.