I am so sorry for your sitch. It made my stomach turn as I read your post tonight. What really got me was after your first time swinging with him, he tells you he had cheated. I can only imagine how much that hurt. I completely understand how your love for him died at that time.
I'm glad you're going to look at an apartment this week. Getting away from him will do wonders for you. You deserve so much more in life. You are sounding stronger. Remember, we are here for you.
Me: 39 H: 39 S: 15 M: 18 years Bomb: 6/3/09 H moved out: 10/15/09 H moved back:5/30/10