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Dangerous thoughts indeed.


Dangerous...b/c everyone is re-writing history - even the LBS - if Truth is relative.

Were you happy at that moment your were photographed or not? That it went south does not change that. What was she thinking/feeling? Hers to answer. Just b/c you THOUGHT she was happy and now you THINK she might not have been - does not a lie make. WAW have enough to answer for without being saddled with "our whole happy family life was a lie." Not fair.

I am truly sorry for I know what looking at pics can do - was just working through a box of them myself today and played with this idea of "I wonder how much of my soul/mind/heart knew that our tailspin was coming when I said 'cheese'." Here's some Truth for you - you don't know what you don't know...until you know it. And when I looked at those pictures of me as a younger mother, heading out on the path that would take me to the point of walking out of our home, I DIDN'T KNOW...until I knew. Those pictures, those times were not a lie. But those days accumulated and achieved a definition over time b/c of neglect or misuse or misunderstanding, until...I knew. At the point of knowing, living with it would be a lie. But the days leading up to the bomb? Who knew?


Me45 H46
T25 M22
S21 & 19
D13
Separated and filed 8/08
Moved home 11/08



Happily ever after is one day at a time.