Today has been a quiet day. That is always good but for some reason today I feel down about stuff.

We are suppose to be going on a weekend vacation with friends this coming weekend. I have been looking forward to this vacation for a long time. I am just worried that my H will act out like he has the last couple of weekends that we have spent together.

I don't want to wish it upon myself by thinking about it but I can't help it. I just want to have a great weekend, have fun, and maybe try and reconnect with my H again.

I have a MC appointment on Monday and I am going to talk to him about the stuff that had been happening and ask him what I can possibly do to not make a situation that my H starts any worse. Or makes it ruin the vacation.

Just down today. All by myself, no kids, no H, just me.

Me-31
Him-28
D1-9
D2-6
Married 5-06
Seperated 12-07
He filed 1-08
Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08
Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09
Filed for D 4-28-09
Trying to make a go of it 6-09