I am glad to hear that you took some time for yourself and got to relax a bit.
I feel the same way you do about still loving my H but not the person that he is now. As I say it, I still love him but I don't like him right now. All I can say is, I understand how you feel about that.
When you get to feeling the way you do and you start seperating things in your mind, remember to tell yourself that you had reported what she was doing to HIM and you had asked HIM to help stop her from doing it. HE chose not to help stop her so you had to take the next step to stop her. No, you did not do this to him but he is going to feel like you did if he is as selfish as he sounds to me.
Like I said before, he thought he had everything, a wife still wanting him, a son that still loves him, and another woman on the side that wants him. You showed him that he really did not have everything, so he is lashing out at you becasue he lost some of the control that he thought he had.
You are doing better than I am in my stich, so Bravo to you.
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09