Hey donna, thanks for sharing your thoughts. I also sometimes feel like the stranger I've become. What I used to think was heartfelt emotion now seems like self-deceiving justifications. My D taught me that I'm a bad judge of others' intentions and it's since been hard to get past the sense that life is about to throw out another 180.
Like you, I hope I'm just lonely, but so many times I feel like my GAL and PMA is just going through the motions. I've lost the happiness I used to be able to experience. Time with friends is fun but I feel an innocent joy is no longer there.
I could counsel you with stuff you've already heard - i know because I've heard it too. But I really just wanted to say I hear you.
