Trying to stay strong

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I have been handling things pretty good the last few days. Then I came across something tonight that reminded me of everything and really hit me. So am having a hard time tonight. And feeling angry.

The last time I saw H, he said to me 'I don't want to cut you out of my life, that is not what I am trying to do.' I know it means nothing, I wish I could stop thinking about it.

I haven't contacted him, last I heard was a text days ago. I don't really even want to talk to him, I have nothing to say, nothing good anyway.

I know I will eventually be ok, I am just sad for the way things are and I don't know if that will ever go away.