I'm trying to drop the rope and step off the roller-coaster. All thinking about it does is get me all tied up in knots and that is no good for anyone. If she won't go there for herself, me stewing about it is pretty pointless. All I can do is to keep taking care of myself. I hope she comes around, but staring at the door/phone/email isn't going to make that happen any quicker. Doing things for me isn't that hard, really. It is the mental aspect of this that I'm hesitant about. There are some things that I could do to take care of myself that would shut the door with Her permanently. I'm trying to find that balance of leaving the door open (or maybe just unlocked) and living my life without her in it.
Originally Posted By: Jimbo
Trust me- Things are NOT as they seem
You have no idea how much I am hanging on to this thought. (Well, maybe you do. ) This whole thing just feels so wrong.
Somebody asked me yesterday why we were getting divorced and I had a hard time coming up with a reason. Her "It just isn't working" isn't really a reason. It's like I'm watching a bad movie.
I'm supposed to move on Thursday, but I'm hoping that the place is finished earlier so I can move a little quicker. I think the change of scenery will do me good. I'm obsessing over the apt...I wish I could just turn off my brain for a few days. Perhaps a vacation is in order. Turn off the phone, email, work ... and just play for a week somewhere.
) This whole thing just feels so wrong.
