Trying to stay strong

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Thanks for stopping by beepee and for the encouragement.

Journaling...
Today has been pretty good. Not really done anything out of the ordinary but I am just 'being' and and it feels ok most of the time.

I went for a nice swim earlier and sauna. It was good exercise and really good relaxing. I definitely dont feel anxious this week and dont feel as down as I did before. I find myself getting bored more, so that just means I need to schedule in more activities. so will try that.

I had a guy tell me he liked me last night. Not that it changes anything, but it was a flattering comment and the attention felt nice, bit of a confidence booster.

I am getting my head around the fact that while what is happening/has happened is heart wrenchingly sad, its not the end of the world. I will continue focusing on moving forward. It will be ok. I will be ok. (lol thought I better write that down so next time I feel like I can't make it I can go back and read it!)

Today I got the results from some of my last essays I turned in in June and I passed! Yey! I'm so glad. Even with everything else going on I managed to get a decent grade.

I've got this craft project I am going to work on this evening. I really want to do it but had been putting it off for weeks now. So that's my goal tonight and to entertain myself. Not exactly wild and crazy painting the town red, but I am trying to save money! And I am learning to be content on my own which is a huge thing I have learned over the months. Not something I'd ever do in the past. I do like to do things with people and be social, but you cant always look to others. I think there is a lot to be said about enjoying your own company. And I have learned to enjoy myself more. I suppose that comes with becoming happier with who you are.