Was checking out your post Mac and I am sorry your wife is flaking...
She does sound just like mine...
He got ahold of me the other day because he needed some money...
Not gonna happen sorry...
Why in the world does she need no less then 3 grand a month? I have 2 kids and don't even need that much...
Basically she wants her cake and eat it to...
She wants her own life (right now) as long as you are willing to support it...
Eff that...
If she needs that much money a month, then she either needs to get a couple of jobs or not be so high maintence...
Other then that, I am happy your attitude is still positive...It is the absolute worst situation to find yourself in however you are doing a fantastic job with your PMA...
Mine wavers day to day however I suppose that is normal...
Somedays I am just fine (as long as I don't think about it) and other days it takes all I have not to go to his place and beat him down for what he has done...
Good thing my meds are stable lol...
Days like today, I am calm within...
I tell myself I deserve better...
I am stronger then I ever knew because of this...
I have an inner peace now that I haven't had in a long time and quite frankly (today) I am not sure I want him back...
I feel guilty for thinking that however what is to say if we do get back together, he won't do it again later on down the road? What kind of man bails on his family with no guilt?
No remorse?
No regret?
How in the hell do you get that kind of trust back?
I know the answers aren't easy to come and I am not sure anyone has those answers but these are the questions I ponder...
I hope your rugby game is going wonderfully and you have a fantastic day!
"Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will." Jawaharal Nehru
(((Hugs))) to all
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
