he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

thank you. hope u have a great weekend too. went to the gym, hadnt been there since monday so it was good to go. even ran a few minutes, havent done that in a while.


im still sad, still hoping h doesnt stay mad at me. i do know though that even if it takes a few months, he wont stay angry. i think it will get worse before it gets better, i think reality is hitting him and will continue to hit him when he sees me selling our things and moving.

so far he has not had many consequences for his affair. the credit card debt was a consequence, but not brought on by me.

going forward, he will blame me. blame me for selling things, for her getting in trouble.

but in reality, its the consequences of his actions and i need to constantly remind myself. constantly remind myself that the other night when he was carrying on, he was still lying. lying when he said to me that i told her in may that "he just ran out", when in reality he did just run out! he is still lying and telling her he never came home to me.

when do the lies end? when?