Hey Hope, I don't remember if it was you or not. Two years ago I swore I would not be in this sitch that long and here I am. In a way I feel sorry for your outcome....but in another way I envy you. At least you can move on. After reading your post to me I looked around the house and son was on his computer, Wife was watching her soaps (she records them and watches them at night, Could never figure that out it's not like she works during the day but whatever) And there was peace in my house. No things are not 100% great but I would say at least 75% ok. So many little things I have either because aware of or they are little straws I keep grasping. Last night after dinner I went to give my Wife the usually after dinner “thanks for dinner kiss” well this time when I did she was standing and she put her hands on my hips when I did this. (Closest thing to her giving me a hug on her own in a long time). So we went from not kissing two years ago to her not even turning her head but letting me kiss her on the cheek, to turning her head and at least letting me kiss her on the lips to actually kissing me back…. What a long strange trip it’s been….. Like I said what seems to be working for both of us it this “two step” thing. I advance far enough to not make her uncomfortable and then back off enough so I am not let down.
As for the job market? Still nothing. I am not really looking yet. I am trying for retraining but this two is a slow process. A lot of hoops to jump through. Maybe my Marriage situation has helped me prepare for this job sitch. I told wife last night as soon as I have this training funds approved I will go to the temp agency and put my name in to find work while I am in school. Strange situation that I can’t do it the other way around. If I got a temp job before I would not be eligible for any funds… Anyway I bartered some guy into letting me have some tongue and groove decking for free so this weekend I will be building the deck so wife can use the pool. The only bad news I have is my trailer broke a leaf spring and I can’t find a replacement anywhere so I will not be hauling anything with my jeep but I still have the old P/U (with over 200,000 miles on it) but you know them fords… They keep on running.. Later Doc love….
I listen to our favorite song Playing on the radio Hear the dj say loves a game of easy come and Easy go But I wonder does he know Has he ever felt like this And I know that youd be here right now If I could have let you know somehow I guess
Every rose has its thorn Just like every night has its dawn Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song Every rose has its thorn
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
