Yet, I do not fear these thoughts, nor do I dismiss them, but embrace them as my truth. I also am unafraid to tell her this in the face of certain failure: So I do that just now before I leave with my D8 for the weekend.
I hear the emotion in your words. And I, and many others, have been exactly where you are. Let the emotions happen, embrace them (all away from your W and D), and then pick yourself up and keep moving forward.
I wish I had an answer for you, but you and I both know there isn't one. It just IS.
Pray about it and spend this time focusing on your D and yourself.Those things will make it easier. But it's going to take some time.
Things probably look bleak right now, but it isn't over and neither is your fight. It is just changing a little bit. There are many people here who had their W move out and file for D that reconciled. If she moves out, the does of reality could be a good thing.
But remember, this is a time for you to work on yourself - to change to become a better, and STRONGER, person. For yourself and your D. Your W will see these positive changes. We have no control over what our wives chose to do about our "awakenings" but we can certainly make it more difficult on them to cling to their decision to leave.
I'm praying for you and I'm sure many others are too. Pray for strength, peace, wisdom and patience. Then let them come.
You can do this, and you are a lot stronger than you realize.
