Just had a really good conversation/dinner with my H before he left for the lake. He talked about the latest update. But he got deeper and said to me I hope you know I would never get involved with X. I especially wouldn't want to be involved with someone who has her type of problems. He even said he knew I had a right to feel the way I do about things. I won't get into everything else but it took a weight off my shoulders.
Even though all I gave him for his birthday was a big bag of lots of different kinds of his favorite candy. He seemed to think that it was thoughtful. He loves the large size Lemonheads and I was able to find them at our local Ben Franklin store. He said where did you find those? We at dinner together at the kitchen table for a change with our youngest son (oldest son doesn't get off work until 9 pm). It was nice for a change. We remodeled our kitchen last Fall/Winter and I bet we've only sat there together a handle of times.
I was working in the kitchen cleaning up some dishes while he was getting ready to leave for the lake. He made a point of coming over to me and giving me a hug and a kiss.
I had a half day of vacation today and really had an agonizing afternoon. My mind was replaying everything everyone has been warning me about. I got myself so worked up. God is sure good because when I've had about more than I can take - something happens like our conversation tonight.
I feel back on track. I know there are going to be more ups and downs but I'll be able to get through them.
Puppy - I hope things are better for your D20. I'm continuing to say prayers for her.
Thanks again Puppy & Sandi for who you are. As I've told Puppy before, you are doing some great work on this site. You're touching a lot of people's lives in such a positive way.
