Haven't been on in awhile. Feeling a bit low so thought I'd jump on again for a bit. Been reading and keeping up on old friends' sitches.
In a nutshell - D in 10/08. XW wants to be friends and I've somewhat reciprocated but don't open myself up to her. Just listen.
Got laid off in June. Now feel a bit of a failure, though I'm trying hard to keep a PMA. Just seems the cards are a bit stacked right now, I guess.
XW hired me to do some contract work. Has also asked to have dinner several times. What became apparent quickly was that she has no relationship skills but is a world-class woman professionally. Somehow, realizing this allowed me to totally drop my feelings towards her altogether. But I don't have anything to replace it yet.
Not sure what her motivations - she keeps wanting to bring up old times when we're together and she seems to want my opinion on things - but I'm using the connection to keep money pressures down and trying to decide what to do next. So far haven't got a single call back for an interview. Oh well, I guess. It's a bit hard to stomach, though.
Anyway, just needed to sound off. Some of you may remember me. lodo
song is, as usual, Patty Griffin:
She says I deserve much better than this It's getting pretty plain to see She tells her boss,"here's my butt, Why don't you give it a kiss- You got all you're gonna get outta me" Twenty years ago with time in a glass Graduation day to pave the way Nothing to show but a life moving too fast And a fear of almost everything And a fear of almost everything
But they say get down under these clouds I was born down under these clouds So I stand up and sing it out loud Someone's still alive under their shroud And I don't wanna die Under these clouds
Her momma tried real hard not to pass it along And so her Momma did before that Somewhere, some day, Someone's singin' their song How everything good goes bad And it really was a gradual thing Passed as easy as a cigarette You wake up one day wrapped in a ball of string Feelin' nothing good's happened to you yet Feels like nothing good's happened to you yet
But they say get down under these clouds I was born down under these clouds So I stand up and sing it out loud Someone's still alive under their shroud And I don't wanna die Under these clouds
